Dream Killers

I killed my own dream.

Laid it to rest over 2 years ago…

Listened to the lies. Listened to the opinions forced upon me. Listened to negative internal dialogue. Listened to fear. Listened to all the reasons why I shouldn’t, couldn’t and now rebelliously wouldn’t.

The thing about dreams is, they don’t disappear. They don’t curtsey at the door on their way out or say “My Pleasure” as they pull away down a winding gravel driveway into the Spring night air. No, they lurk. They haunt. They hang from the awnings of your covered front porch and they whisper light like the star-lit sky. They exhale hope. They scurry across floorboards as you occupy yourself with monotonous tasks, seeding your mind with creative genius. Dreams are never dead. You can kill them, but they never die.

So even though I put to rest a dream I held deep in my heart, this week the Lord said… There’s Resurrection in your DNA. So even though I quit on myself. Even though I boxed up a treasure to save for another lifetime… another season… God did not quit on me and He has not quit on you. Unbox the dream once again, dig up the grave – there’s resurrection in your DNA.

A Moment. A Memory.

Cleaning out not just closets, but computers…

I came across this photo from about 6 years ago and it all came flooding back. It’s like that sometimes, isn’t it? I don’t often use the word trigger, but sometimes it is just that. A springboard of sorts taking us down a trail of memories with a swirl of emotion and a dance with the past. An entire book could be written on all the things that transpired around this moment. We were early on in our itinerant ministry, and traveling as a family was a priority at this time. Though each trip looked different, we always enjoyed taking our kids with us and including them.

If you were there for this specific weekend, you may have had a glimpse… maybe you saw me standing in the foyer of the church with sippy cup in hand, corralling my toddler. Maybe you walked past me as I sat on the floor with my 7 year old and played with him in the aisles.

But what is not photographed; the miles traveled with 2 young kids, the hours of playing and praying to prepare for ministry that weekend, the laughs with a kind woman who always welcomed me into her home, the tears I cried in my minivan after the child-care worker refused to watch my kids, the new South African friends I made, the woman who told me I wasn’t called to travel the nations with my husband, the homemade pancakes… 

Oh the stories I have gathered, oh the tales that I could tell. I’m just glad I showed up, even if I was in “mom-mode” on many a ministry trip with “highly active” children… I would not trade it for anything else. So dear ones, dear ministry wives and preacher’s wives and ones that keep showing up even when they don’t feel qualified or prepared. Keep at it. One thing I have learned from all the travels and all the encounters and all the opinions and all the people; deep in the heart of your family lies treasure. Deep in the soul of your children lies legacy. So I may show up with no make-up and my Dr. Quinn mom bun, but I’m all in… and today, I am all in praying for you. I pray that God would reveal to you the hidden treasures in your every day moments of life. I pray that He would encourage and strengthen your soul and that you’d continue to shine bright.

Set Apart Podcast Episode

You guys… this was so incredible to record and I love that I get to share it with you! Click any of the links below to access Jamie’s podcast and the episode where I am talking about Peace.

In this weeks episode of Set Apart with Jamie Lyn Wallnau our guest Brynn Shamp shares a message on peace during the pandemic! It is filled with wisdom, love and practical advice during this time. I have a feeling you’re gonna LOVE IT!!!

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Peace in the midst of Pandemic

“If you want to find the secrets of the universe, think in terms of energy, frequency and vibration.” – Tesla

In a time of global crisis most of the world is quarantined, social distancing has led to a neglect in a normal emotional and social support system many are accustomed to; leaving them with only their thoughts and what the news is spewing at them. Left in isolation, anxiety and fear has riddled the masses. They are in desperate need of peace.

There is a promise from God to keep us in his perfect peace if we keep our minds focused on Him. What does this perfect peace look like and how can we access it, even in the midst of a pandemic? Isaiah 26:3 says, “You will keep in perfect and constant peace the one whose mind is steadfast [that is, committed and focused on You—in both inclination and character], Because he trusts and takes refuge in You [with hope and confident expectation].” When we look at this text, we see there is a promise for a certain people to be kept in a sacred space. The promise is this; God will guard and keep you. That is what he said he will do, and that is his job. So where is he going to keep us? In perfect peace. This supernatural peace that passes all understanding, mental reasoning and human logic is a place of no inner turmoil. It is a place where anxiety, fear, panic and worry can not reside. It is inner rest.

So if we know what God will do and where he promises to hold us, even when our natural circumstances may not feel wonderful, what are we supposed to do? What is our job in the promise? We are to keep our minds fixed on him. It is the action of staying focused on God. Committing our ways to God. Leaning on God. Hoping confidently on God. We know the scripture talks about renewing our minds and there are so many amazing benefits that take place in our life when we do this. Here are a few verses to get you started on your own journey of peace.

  • “Be transformed by the renewing of your mind” Romans 12:2
  • “and be renewed in the Spirit of your mind” Ephesians 4:23
  • “We have the mind of Christ” 1 Cor. 2:16

We know that we can keep our mind fixed on God when we meditate on His Word. We are spirit, soul and body and our soul realm is made up of mind, will & emotions. As we submit ourselves to the reading and meditation of the Word of God we will notice the transformation Romans talks about and the perfect peace that begins to flood our souls. Not only can we read and meditate on God’s Word, we can Pray! It seems so simple. Yet this is vital to our very existence. I’m not just talking about your spiritual life and how it should thrive. I am speaking holistically in regards to your entire being.

Everything has a vibrational frequency, from the chair you are sitting in to your plant in the window. It is all made up of energy and the frequency is the rate at which the vibration occurs. Frequency can be measured and it can be changed. With that, you should know that your mind and thought life can affect your own frequency, whether it lowers it or lifts it. The average healthy human frequency ranges from 62-72 megahertz. When you meditate on Scripture and Pray you will raise the frequency of your physical body.

Doctors have reported in a study where patients were observed via MRI that ‘prayer involves deeper parts of the brain: the medial prefrontal cortex and the posterior cingulate cortex- the mid front and back portions’ which are parts of the brain that are involved in self-reflection and self-soothing. These areas are also responsible for controlling emotions. When someone engages in prayer they can shift from a stressful mental state as their brain releases “feel good” chemicals such as oxytocin. This same hormone (oxytocin) is released during childbirth. I found that to be so incredible, because it is the chemical our brains release to create that almost euphoric state a woman enters into when she births her child into the world. This is the power of our brains as we pray.

In a time when many are in such a need for supernatural peace, I would encourage you to meditate on God’s Word and get into prayer. As you do these things to ensure your mind is fixed on Him, I know that he will do what he promised and keep you in perfect peace. You can go from hopeless to hope-filled!